Knocking on a heart’s door


It beats, like it always does
Empty inside, the only sound one hears
Is the echo of the beat against its walls
Ticking away like a clock
It wasn’t always this empty
It had been occupied more than once
Ironically, it never felt lonelier then than it does now

First it was Debbie
Buzzing around like a bee
She kept buzzing at the door until I let her in
She was sweet and promised honey unending
She left a whole honeycomb for me to enjoy
And for a moment, I forgot what she was
A bee, apart from making honey
I forgot what else it was good at:
Stinging
Oh she stung me real good
I realized I couldn’t send the bee away
And keep the honey
So I opened the door and sent her buzzing self away
And it was empty again

Next came Becky
How did she even find her way inside?
I don’t remember her knocking
But inside she came and quite the busybody she was
Trying to change the interior décor to her taste
Dictating how I should feel and react to everything
She was forceful and insensitive to what mattered to me
After a while, I felt lost in my own heart
Not recognizing who I was anymore and liking myself even less
When it got too overwhelming
I sat her down and had the hard talk
And oh it wasn’t pretty and didn’t go down well at all
Called me names with weak and coward being the kindest versions
In anger, she ripped whatever hanged on the walls and left in a huff
Leaving me broken, bleeding and deeply wounded

Soon after it was nursed back to healthy beats
It was the turn of Salome to make an appearance
She loved to take and take and take
But give nothing back
She drained the life out of me
When I was out of things to give
She jumped ship
Went looking for a heart that would never run out on her

I had decided I had had enough
I would keep to myself, lock the door and throw away the key
I was better off being alone than miserable with another
Then a knock came
Soft, gentle but firm
I told her I wasn’t ready
She said she would wait
And when I couldn’t stand the emptiness anymore
I opened the door and let her in
Light flooded inside when she entered
And all sense of insecurity and uncertainty vanished
Once her presence settled
My scarred walls began to heal
Whenever I thought of her, the heart fluttered with enthusiasm
Like a happy dog who barks when it sights his good owner

But as all good things come to an end
It was time for her to move on
She wasn’t there to stay but to heal
Now that I was restored, her assignment was done
I wished I could keep her a little longer
And cried my farewell as I told her
She would always hold a place in my heart
Flattered she was but she hoped that what was left
Would be enough for the right one when she arrived

It beats. Warily.
A knock comes in. Who’s there?
It’s me.
You who?
The one you’ve been waiting for.
Will I be able to tell upon first sight?
I’m about to find out.

© Josephine Amoako 2019

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6 Comments Add yours

  1. kpodji emmanuel says:

    Wow. Great work Josey🤗.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. joseyphina says:

      Thanks for reading, Emmanuel

      Like

  2. McApple says:

    Wow! Beautiful piece 😍
    This resonates so well with many, I bet ya 😂

    Liked by 1 person

    1. joseyphina says:

      Yeah I’m sure. Thanks for reading

      Like

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