I’m Jo, somewhere in Africa 🇬🇭🌍. I’m sure you are on standby waiting to start your shift. I don’t know if you’re excited or indifferent about it but for me, it’s kind of bittersweet. Don’t think I’m quite ready 😥.
Halfway through this year, I couldn’t wait for it to be over for you to come – the illusion of getting a fresh start. Like everything else, the middle period is the longest, tiring and frustrating part; where the temptation to give up is strongest and the motivation to hold on, the weakest. That won’t change with you either. That time is coming whether I like it or not 🤷♀️.
I realize I don’t need you to clock in before I do what I need to do. The date doesn’t matter; the first step does. I’m still gathering the courage to do what I know I was born to do and it’s likely it will happen when you come around. I don’t know if you have any favorites but in case you’re taking names of those to be kind to, could you kindly add mine? ✏
This year taught me the relieving power of shedding tears 😭. The moments themselves hurt a lot…do you know the feeling of a heart bleeding? 💔 It’s something like that. You know the interesting part? There’s no sound. Silent pain causing streams of tears to pour onto the face. I guess the amount of water I drink each day has something to do with it. But afterwards, when I’ve taken a deep breath and the wind begins to dry the tears, I feel lighter and at peace when I remember all the reasons why it will get better 🏃♀️.
But I want to experience the other side when you come. I want to shed tears not because of what I’m missing but what I’ve received and too grateful for which my heart can only express with tears. I want to be overwhelmed with goodness and pleasant surprises and not run out of thankful tears. I know that might be out of your hands so I’ve already sent a prayer to the Creator of Time. Just giving you a heads up when He hands over your itinerary 🗂.
I’m not too sure about the ‘New You, New Me’ mantra anymore. Though it will feel different when you take over, it will also feel quite the same. I just want to be better than I am now and bolder with my decisions. I pray I will not ignore the opportunities that come my way to do just that. So help me God 🙇♀️ 🙏.
I’ll end it here. Will write you again soon. Send me a reply when you can.
Till next time,
It’s me, Jo 💃.
© Josephine Amoako 2018