I’ve put this question on hold since last year not because I didn’t know how to go about it but it just didn’t feel like the right time to do so. In the light of the Ebony’s tragic passing, (it’s unfortunate that it had to take her death to finally make me write this) and the after revelations that she somehow knew she’d meet death in Kumasi since last September or so, I wonder how she must have felt, having the fear cloud of death hovering over her as she slept and woke up each day for months until that fateful day.
I’m not sure if the prophecy she received included how she’d die but at least she knew where and though she avoided traversing that route for a while, she braved through it to see her mother who had returned from the UK. As my friend put it, it was a classic example of a plot from the Final Destination movie. It still hurts thinking of her tragic passing and bright future she was going to have but we have no choice but to make our peace with it and move on.
The issue of death has the power to put the fear of God in anyone who thinks himself invincible. Several people have come back from death and have told many things of what they saw at the other side. It might have convinced some people but there are a lot of others who are still skeptical of such narratives. They prefer to live to the fullest and in the moment and leave matters of death to the bridge which they would cross when they get to it.
What are the possible upsides of knowing when you’d be clocking out? For one, you are able to clean house sufficiently before you check out of life. You get to live your last days on your own terms and leave with a bang! if you so wish. You can make amends with those you’ve estranged from; you get to bid farewell to your loved ones and leave things in a way that would not bring chaos among people you love when you’re gone. Some would say, one can make peace with life before the day they know they are leaving earth.
What about the cons of knowing how you’re going to perish? First, you’d live in constant paranoia about what could trigger the beginning of your end. Is it going to be the knife lying idly on the dining table? Or is the tyre of your car going to burst suddenly or perhaps your brakes are going to fail whiles you’re on the highway? Is it the bone of your favorite fish going to be the end of you? The possibilities are endless.
Living with such constant haunting imaginations is dying in itself. Life is enjoyed when you let go of inhibitions but in this case, you have to be extra careful with whatever object or situation is involved in your future death. And if Tyler of Vampire Diaries has taught me anything, it is being too careful is just as bad as not being careful at all.
I’m particularly not frightened with death because I know where my soul will spend eternity (though the thought of being put in a coffin freaks me out – I don’t like to lie on my back and the thought of being lowered into the ground with my face up makes me uncomfortable. What if I become conscious but can’t wake up because I’m lying on my back? (I have difficulty waking up when I sleep lying on my back).
Nonetheless, I’d prefer to know when rather than how I’m going to die. Not everyone gets to have the premonition and there are pros and cons to that as well. I’d love to check out knowing that I’ve done all that I could so that I can rest in peace.
What about you? Which one would you choose and why? Kindly share your thoughts and thanks for reading.
© Josephine Amoako 2018